doa seorg ibu...

it all happen around 2 years ago....

dlm 2 ke 3 thn lps...bpk kite da start keje outstation...
kite sronok sgt tgk bpk kite asyik bli tiket kapal tebang...kite pon nk jgk..sbb sronok tgk kpl tebng tu cm tebng tinggi sgt...kite pon ckp la kt bpk kite cani...

"abah..alia nk naik kpl tebng jgk..abah bwk la alia g skali time abah outstation...nk jln2 jgk..mane g jln2 sorg2...nk ikot...nk ikot...ini adelah satu KETIDAKADILAN..."

pastu kite xpuas ati jgk..kite mintak kt mak plak..mak kite kate cani plak...

"mama...alia nk naik kpl tebng ngan abah..mama simpn la duit..then bli tiket utk alia...sungguh bernas idea alia..kn mama kn..."

" ko mmg ske mengarut...blaja la pandai2...nnt bole la mintak biasiswa jpa...then bole la naik kpl tebang...tp ko kne la blaja dlu...blaja la alia..."

kite xcaye ckp mama tu..tp tiap kali abah g outstation naik kpl tebng..then mesti jealous..hehe.. (sungguh kebudak-budakan)

thn berikut nye..kite amik spm..then result pon kuar la...kite sedey sgt..sbb xleh tunaikn hrpn mama...time nk call mama nk btau result tu...rase sedey sgt..n betape xbegune nye diri ni..sbb mak kite keje JPA..bhgn anta dak2 kuar g UK..tp anak die xlps...kite pon call mak kite...

"mama...nk mintak maaf..sbb dpt result trok...alia dpt yg ni je...*dirahsiekn*..."

"Alhamdulilah...bgos la tu alia..xpe...kite try je mintak...mama tlg tanye kwn2 mama..bole lps x ko nye result ni...jgn la riso...mama nk ucap trime kasih sbb blaja pndai2 n dpt result bgos ni..nnt mama bg duit utk ko pegi blanje n jln2..."

Ya Allah betape sedey nye ati ni..ade ke mama kate trime kasih sbb blaja..tu kn mmg da tugas ak utk blaja n bg die bangge ngan diri kite ni...sedey nye Allah je yg tau..time call tu xdpt nk thn sebak sbb mama ckp trime kasih...

nk jdk crite..kite xdpt biasiswa JPA tu..kite pon sedey la jgk...sgt sedey sbb rase cm memalukn mama je...sian die..mama slalu senyum n ckp mende yg sdp didenga tlinge...tp ati die sape la tau..sian mama dpt anak cm kite ni..yg xleh nk bebakti utk die...sian die...

pastu kite pon troskn la hidop ngan msok matrix..kite xdpt pon twrn upu..so pegi je la..walopon dicmpk jaoh g kedah...kite xkesah...dlm ati ni nk bejuang jgk..kite btau diri sendrik yg..

" im like a yatch..floating on the sea...i will go wherenever the waves bring me..but one thing for sure...i will landed safely and without any scratches on me...i will survive"

kite pon cube la wat yg tebaik sbb tringat kn muke mama yg senyum slalu tu..cube nk bangge kn die...dgn mengorban segale yg ade...hanye utk mama kite...yg slalu senyum...

pastu kite pon dpt la result yg agak bagos tp xde la dpt 4flat...kite rase sedey lg sbb rase cm rslt tu xdpt jgk nk bangge kn mama kite...kite pon redha je ngan ketentuan ilahi...kite apply upu..Alhamdulillah...kite dpt UKM...at least mama bangge la kot ble crite kt org yg anak die dpt UKM...farmasi lak tu...so kite harap mama bangge ngan kite..harap la..tp stil kecewe sbb xleh nk g oversea...sian mama..dpt anak yg xleh nk tunaikn cite2 die...mama yg slalu senyum..mama...

ble da tesekse 2minggu kt UKM tu...ngan orientation die yg cm tuuuut...tp kite ttp sronok sbb dpt course yg kite ske..kite mmg nk jdk pharmacist pon...sbb kite nk tlg org...especially family..ble diorg sakit..then xyah la ssh nk g bli ubt..ye la...slalu nye sakit skit2 mesti g jumpe pharmacist je..kn ok tu...kite leh tlg mama...mama yg slalu senyum...

then kite dpt call MARA n kate kite dpt course dentistry kt Indon...mule kite xnk pegi..sbb org kate course kt Indon ni busuk la...Indon kn..biase la...korg tau la..agak dipndg rendah...mule2 kite mmg tekad kn ati xmau pegi...kite da ckp cani kt mama..

"mama..alia xnk pegi Indon ni...xpe la...farmasi cm da ok je..."

"ko pk la lg alia..ni mase dpn ko ni...pk la lg....stil ade mase lg ni..pk la lg"

tp kite degil jgk..sbb kite rase niat kite da ok da...sbb nk tlg mama...jz mama je yg xtau...time tu kite xpk plak psl senyuman mama..sbb kite rase cm kite da btol da...pastu satu ari bpk kite call n ckp cani..

"cani la alia...td abah bru lps smayg isyak..pastu abah nmpk ko jdk doc gigi..ahahahahhahaa"

lps denga mende tu..kite pon amik la mende tu sbg signal yg abah suwo pegi indon tu...weekend tu kite pon balik la umah...nk btau yg kite trime tawaran tu..nk pegi Indon n amik dentistry tu...seblom balik tu..kite call la bubu kite...n gado la gak..die kate cani..

"biar btol...pk la dlu btol2..ape yg u nk...xelok tegese2 ni...pk la lg..."

" xpela..i da wat keputusan nk pegi...i hidop ni nk sacrifice n bebakti utk parents i...i idop utk balas balik jase diorg yg jage i smpai i besa ni...rase nye pegi Indon ni pon blom tentu leh byr pengorbanan diorg...i sanggop sacrifice course farmasi ni..demi diorg"

then kite pon balik la umah..n btau mende gembire tu kt mama kite..die senyum lg...senyuman die yg sgt mhl bg kite...kite harap die dpt la bebangge ngan kite yg tebang g Indon ni..kite hrp sgt...moge die bole senyum slalu...

skng ni kite da kt Indon...then tringat plak kate mama yg blaja pndai2 then bole la naik kpl tbg...walopon jrk sejam je..tp kite fly jgk n dpt gak rase naik kpl tbng..hehehehe...akhirnye..doa mak kite temakbul jgk...walopon lmbt skit..maybe ape yg die ckp tu doa kot..hahaha...

kite nk ckp trime kasih kt mak kite...yg xpnh putus ase tehdp kite ni..walopon mcm2 kite da kecewe kn die..ngan result trok kite...sian mama..walo ape yg kite wat...die ttp senyum..senyum da senyum..mama kite yg disayangi...smoge mama leh senyum slalu...smoge mama bahagie slalu..so bile kite balik Msia kite leh nmpk senyuman tu...mama...i love u...

love,
~allie~